I can’t believe it’s already August! Someone hit the brakes. I seriously feel like summer just started. You know, except for the RIDICULOUS heat. But I’ve been trying to soak up as much summer fun with my husband and kiddos as I can and I feel like it’s going by way too fast.
But, to be honest, no summer is completely fun when you have random tantrum-throwing little ones. You know, like when you plan something fun for your kids only to wonder what the heck you were thinking when they decide to throw a big fit in the middle of your lovely plans. And then there are the things that you THINK you can control, but you can’t. Like when your two-year-old (he just turned three!) get’s Athlete’s Foot from going to Six Flags or has a random allergy attack that causes you to rush him to the emergency room. Or your five-year-old gets a bladder infection. Which sucks for everyone! And those are the things that make me think, “go away summer! I’m done!”
But I’m not done.
I’m not done because when summer ends so does Shade’s time at home with me. She’ll be starting school in a few weeks and I can’t even think about it without getting a little upset. I know I wrote about dreading it back when she turned five, but it’s like, HAPPENING NOW. And no…nope. She doesn’t have to go to school, right? I mean, I can answer her millions of questions about how everything in the world works and…eh, I know it’s time. Her little mind needs expanding and I can only do so much. She’s getting that whole reading thing down pretty well. Which makes me super proud. But she’s thirsty for knowledge and I know, I KNOW it’s time for Kindergarten. It just sucks.
The joke is on the teacher though, because I’ve been teaching her things from one of my Psychology text books. So Shade will be thoroughly disappointed when they don’t cover the lobes of the brain on her first day of Kindergarten! You’re welcome!
And right now Atlas is being very clingy to Shade. He follows her around the house and yells her name when she disappears. Does he know there’s change coming? Has he gotten so attached that her absence during the day is going to be really hard on him? I’m kind of scared to find out.
So this has been our summer. Just trying to have fun and not worry about all of the changes that are coming to our little family. Soaking up those lazy, hazy, crazy days of summer. (Speaking of which, can the new Gilmore Girls season come out already?) And enjoying all those little meltdowns and tantrums and being upset because mommy wants YET ANOTHER picture. Enjoying, not just our summer, but our LIVES together. Because life is fleeting. I live in Dallas and I usually try to avoid the news, but with so many horrible things going on in the world – it’s just unavoidable. And I hate seeing the condition that we’re in. Just the way that people are treating one another. It’s too much.
Life is beautiful, full of wonder and hope, and always gone too soon. So I’ll take this summer and enjoy these moments with my husband and kids. The good and the bad. I love it all.